Yea...It's hurting so much

Woke up today heart beating so fast. I was feeling so nervous and afraid. But today is just a normal day. Nothing special about this day......Yet somehow i guessed i know why i am feeling this way



想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛
连沉默也痛

遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛
恨不懂你会痛
想见不能见最痛

有些心情该释放

Today i feel down again.....I seems to like to keep things to myself...Perhaps i don't want to spread my unhappiness around. But then it got me thinking again. Is that the correct way to deal with things?......

Hmm...the night breeze today is so peaceful. I feel like sitting here till it stops......

Different Paths

The 2 weeks in Insead is by far the most enjoyable engagement :)  It was so fun to work in this team. So fun that it didn't feels like I am working anymore. Even though we have to work overtime till 10pm, it wasn't stressful at all. Okay maybe not totally stress-free, but overall I wouldn't have any complains. It may be tiring at times but we talked, we joked, we listened to songs, we cooked 碗面, we ordered Macdonalds, we played a silly prank and we messed around. I also wouldn't forget about running around the place like crazy to search for the missing pass and seeking refuge in the top floor to escape from the boss's nagging. However, time always flies like a jet plane......This engagement ended in a *blink*

After this engagement ended, half of this team went separate ways. It's such a pity. Nevertheless, these memories will stay. It will stay in an untouchable space. Yet I am afraid that my memory may fail me. The images will no doubt fade as time goes by. And we will be living our own life, walking our own paths, fighting for our own dreams. I'm looking at the clouds now......thinking of such a situation. And where each of us would be. Millions of people passes by each other every seconds. But for that 'passer-by' to be someone whom you had fought together with, it would take a rare opportunity.

The song has ended. But the melody still lingers on...

我不难过

Though I already knew, it still hurts when I actually hear it......

You called me again. But i still couldn't bring myself to ask about you. I wanted......but the words couldn't get out of my mouth. I couldn't do anything to comfort you. I'm sorry......



I will do better next time. I promised.

Start of internship

2 weeks of work have passed. It was tiring. Even though there is no longer a need to worry about tutorials and projects, free time at home is still very scarce. Everyday after work i would be too tired to do my own stuffs. But well, work at Ernst & Young is not that bad because there are a lot of friends there. So we could help each other out and feel less 'out-of-place'.

2 days ago, results were out. It wasn't that bad nor was it really good. I've got 2 distinctions for the modules that i really like but i had only maintained my GPA. I had calculated. The maximum score i can get now is 3.7. It sounds hard to get into university and i don't have good CCA record......sigh......

 No career, no studies, no talent, dream seems impossible. Life sux and everybody dies...

Thai Insurance - Father