Junk

Hearing their straight As and distinctions make me feel damn worthless. Those are the results that i didn't manage to achieve in my life.

Not getting enlightened earlier is my biggest regret.

Now i am a useless scrap with diminishing hope of getting into a Uni.

My life is in the middle of nowhere, with nothing in hand.

I don't know how to move on...

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Passed these few days with a blurry state of mind. Fever, burning eyes, running blocked nose, painful pimples/ulcers and insects bites all over me. I think the damn bugs brought me some virus which causes infection because the vampire-like bite marks on my calf is turning dark red. Couldn't sleep well.

My brother had been overseas. Yesterday, i got dragged by father to rescue his car because the battery's dead when it wasn't warmed up for some time. Halfway through all the futile attempts, i noticed bloods on my foot. Lots of blood. Dripping. I hid it from dad before going home to tend my wounds. All the movements must have tore open my wounds i guess. Later that day, every movement i made hurts.

Nevertheless, i went to Suntec this morning for Grade 3 theory test (with a limp though). Those happy kids must be wondering what this lame uncle is doing at this place. The paper was quite easy la! I was carrying a fever after all leh. I limp back after that...

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I finally mailed out my application for SMU university today :)   It had been burdening me for ages...ermmm...ya i went back to school yesterday to get my testimonials from Ms Phoon and Yoko sensei. I had a nice catch-up with them......It was a wonderful feeling :)   But i don't know if we have a chance to meet again. I miss the school, the people, the place. I felt nostalgic and reluctant to leave school yesterday. I know i don't have much chance to get back to this place again......

I just wrote a thank-you note to these two teachers. It wasn't easy trying to write everything in Japanese to Yoko sensei so i wrote it with a mixture of languages. Kinda glad to be their students and grateful for their teachings :)   Also grateful to the other good teachers as well.

Thank you for everything :)

On the other hand, my illness seems to be recovering after so many weeks. I hope i will fully recover soon...
I shall spend the rest of my time studying for music theory exam this saturday.

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Something to Ponder about

If you woke up this morning with more health than illness...

You are more blessed than the million who will not survive this week.

If you have never experienced the danger of battle, the loneliness of imprisonment, the agony of torture, or the pangs of starvation ... 

You are ahead of 500 million people in the world.

If you can attend a meeting without fear of harassment, arrest, torture, or death...

You are more blessed than three billion people in the world.

If you have food in the refrigerator, clothes on your back, a roof overhead and a place to sleep...

You are richer than 75% of this world.

If you have money in the bank, in your wallet, and spare change in a dish someplace ... 

You are among the top 8% of the world's wealthy.

If your parents are still alive and still married ... 

You are very rare, even in the United States and Canada.

If you can read this webpage, you are more blessed than over two billion people in the world that cannot read at all.

Take nothing for granted.

旅行的意义

Diary | 3 Feb 2012 | Friday

This week was the toughest week of the whole internship. Everything was very difficult to do. But i'm glad that it is over now. Managed to finish everything around four and rush for the speech contest at 4.30pm. Was a bit late but never mind. I am presenting last. I am super happy that i said out my speech without mistake and much hesitation. Did not even performed that well during my thousandth rehearsal. And in the end, because i did not use any written notes for my speech, i received praises for my memory tehehe ^^

After the contest, we mingled around with the Japanese students and had some refreshments. Then the award ceremony began. But i didn't really care much and went to the toilet (lol). When i was done, my sensei saw me coming back and opened the door quickly. And she was like: "There he is!". I was surprised when i was told that i won the third prize. Everybody was looking at me and clapping when the door just opened. Omg!! Ahahahaha!! So fortunate ~. I think i let out a really shock expression for everybody to see hah!

After that, everyone received an envelope that contains comments from the Japanese students as well as our fellow classmates. I got mine too. Though i couldn't decipher the difficult comments by the foreign students, i can understand the easier ones from my classmates. The warm-hearted wishes made me smile from the bottom of my heart. I realized that this was the last assessment/event relating to Japanese for the 3 years of poly life. After today, there probably won't be much chance for me to cross path with Japanese or these classmates again. Feeling a little sad. Though i did not really interact with others except for Bentoh in class, i am beginning to feel reluctant towards leaving these bunch of people.

The prizes and everything i've received from the class this year

After everything ended, i met up with some fellow interns who happened to be in school. We went to eat at a market nearby the school. Then we stayed there and chatted for a long time. Time flies really fast and internship is about to end. But i couldn't wait. So do they ahahaha!! ...... Hmm on the other hand, this also means that everybody would be going separate ways, doesn't it?