The second/third day

Saw this exemption clause behind the hotel room door.

An inside view of the hotel

Don't be fooled by the appearance, the lobby toilet is dirty and clogged up. Shan't elaborate more. After breakfast at the hotel, we went for the casino~~. On the way there, there were no S'pore car because of the new casino.

The fog was so thick and it was so cold.

Got into the casino straight away but didn't gamble. It was an eye-opener. My family won a few hundred dollars and then we went for lunch. Finally found a place with unprotected wi-fi. Fb awhile then walked around the mall. 婆婆 became tired and we sent her home.

After a rest, we went to 外婆's house, at Kahang. During the night, we set 'kong ming' lantern, watched fireworks and played mahjong together. It's so fun being with my cousins.

初二 morning we went to a nearby roti-prata shop to eat breakfast. Few of us went first to get seats and we ordered 30 roti-pratas. That prata-man was so shocked and faster went to flip his roti-prata. After that we went back to continue our mahjong session. Afternoon; the lion dance troupes came to our house and we set off the firecrackers.

 

In the evening, we went to Kluang, where another relatives is located. We reserved a room at a hotel restaurant and ate there. It was a big room to hold three tables. There was also ktv there. Stayed there for few hours and then straight away came back to S'pore. Before we left, all of us took a photo at the entrance. And then everybody went separate ways. It was sad to leave them and it also means i have to get back to my studies. I wished i can spend more time there. Away from singapore, away from studies, away from all the sadness back here...

Chinese New Year Trip

13 Feb 2010. The day we embarked on a journey that has no internet or facebook throughout. It was a relaxing journey without any itinerary to follow. We do as we wished, taking one step at a time. Set off in wee hours, we arrived at a foodcourt somewhere in the countryside at 8 and had a quick breakfast. The temperature there was quite cooling. We continued on the journey in the car and managed to reach KL before noon. We tried very hard to wriggle through the unlawful street where the people and cars coexist. The people were like colonies of ants. Countless. I looked at you, you looked at me, and continue walking like nobody's business. Hey! This is not a zebra crossing you know? We drove around in circles, trying to find our hotel. To our surprise, we passed-by my father's workplace where he worked in 30 years ago. The shop was still there and his ex-boss, colleagues were still working there. He could still recognize them after 30 years?! We parked the car by the road and went in to do some catching-up. After that, they gave us directions to our hotel and we checked-in.

Not this one. We don't have money.

It's a small 3-star hotel with no carpark. So, we parked our car by the road outside the hotel and received a summon the next day. Didn't intend to pay cause we are waiting for the government to give discounts and offers. Yes, Malaysian government do give discounts for summons occasionally to entice their people to pay up. They have no choice cause their people don't care about the government and don't want to pay.

After we put our lugguage in the room, we went for lunch in chinatown which is just beside the hotel. Smiling throughout the lunch, Pa reminiscence about his work at KL 30 years ago; about his colleagues, boss etc. After that, we walked around chinatown street. Nothing much there but very crowded. Didn't managed to buy anything. We went back to rest shortly after. And i watched their television; all malay programmes and the only chinese one sucks. At 5, we set off to 婆婆's house. Just nice peak hour. Traffic congestion. The drivers were seriously playing music with their horn and they could form an orchestra le la. And i noticed how all the cigarettes, chewing gums, plastic bags decorated the pavement and road. What a wonderful place.

That was the first time i went to 婆婆's house. We had a very simple and quiet 8-person dinner unlike the usual 3-table feast at 外婆's. Haven't seen 婆婆 for a few years already. She didn't change at all. And then there was a broadcast of a malay man singing.  走音 somemore. I knew and personally heard them broadcasting people singing at 5 IN THE MORNING but didn't know they do it in the evening too. After the dinner, i was so happy to receive crystal's message. So thoughtful of her. After dinner, we went back to the hotel to mug. I spent the last second of Bull's year studying bmgt. Miss setting off fireworks and playing mahjong with them at 外婆's.

Feeling so lost right now. This is probably the end. There is nothing left to pursue anymore. It's time to wake up from my dream and get back to my usual life.

Dreams are such a blissful and wonderful thing to indulge in. But the feeling of despair when coming back to reality...

I certainly hoped that it's true

Constant pain felt on the left side of my chest. Because there's lots of unhappy things happening recently. The pain started yesterday and didn't subside till this afternoon. Wasn't able to sleep well because of that. Woke up at 5.40am today, feeling lethargic. Dragged myself to school and sat outside cheers to study with yue yang. But i just stared into blank space there. No mood to study.
The exam; anyhow do. Didn't even bother to check my work. Left as soon as i finished. Went to Mac with the usual people. At Mac, i tored the ffa and bmgt exam paper into pieces. Felt a tiny bit better after that.

Feeling a sense of lost right now. The path in front of me is so murky and blur. Where exactly is my destination and why am i studying so hard for? I'm so tired of wandering alone in this cold darkness. I wonder if i should strive on.

Study, anime and storybook. It seems like it's designed to make people forget about their unhappiness. A temporary escape to another world. It makes people forget everything that happened in the cruel reality; by indulging in the illusionary world of books. Every memories of the real world is casted aside. Far far away. There, a new life sprouts. A different story evolves. A transitory swap of identity. They are like a vortex; drawing me into the center. Deeper and deeper. Never wanting to come out again.

Exam period!

Busy!Busy!Busy!Busy!Busy!Busy!Busy!Busy!Busy!Busy!Busy!Busy!Busy!Busy!Busy!Busy!Busy!Busy!Busy!Busy!Busy!Busy!Busy!Busy!Busy!Busy!Busy!Busy!Busy!Busy!Busy!Busy!Busy!Busy!Busy!Busy!
Insanely busy these few days because of exams. Had been studying non-stop from Tuesday to Thursday. Going crazy soon. Then yesterday was blaw test. I wasn't exactly happy with my performance because I wasn't sure of my answer for most of the parts. And the ethics question is gone for good. But still, there's chance I get an A.

Didn't manage to study yesterday due to an untimely 'eye-pain'. Didn't study much today either and I'm still not getting panic. Why do I have this illusion that I still have time? Someone please wake me up!!!