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Hearing their straight As and distinctions make me feel damn worthless. Those are the results that i didn't manage to achieve in my life.

Not getting enlightened earlier is my biggest regret.

Now i am a useless scrap with diminishing hope of getting into a Uni.

My life is in the middle of nowhere, with nothing in hand.

I don't know how to move on...

Z213071

Passed these few days with a blurry state of mind. Fever, burning eyes, running blocked nose, painful pimples/ulcers and insects bites all over me. I think the damn bugs brought me some virus which causes infection because the vampire-like bite marks on my calf is turning dark red. Couldn't sleep well.

My brother had been overseas. Yesterday, i got dragged by father to rescue his car because the battery's dead when it wasn't warmed up for some time. Halfway through all the futile attempts, i noticed bloods on my foot. Lots of blood. Dripping. I hid it from dad before going home to tend my wounds. All the movements must have tore open my wounds i guess. Later that day, every movement i made hurts.

Nevertheless, i went to Suntec this morning for Grade 3 theory test (with a limp though). Those happy kids must be wondering what this lame uncle is doing at this place. The paper was quite easy la! I was carrying a fever after all leh. I limp back after that...

Z213031

I finally mailed out my application for SMU university today :)   It had been burdening me for ages...ermmm...ya i went back to school yesterday to get my testimonials from Ms Phoon and Yoko sensei. I had a nice catch-up with them......It was a wonderful feeling :)   But i don't know if we have a chance to meet again. I miss the school, the people, the place. I felt nostalgic and reluctant to leave school yesterday. I know i don't have much chance to get back to this place again......

I just wrote a thank-you note to these two teachers. It wasn't easy trying to write everything in Japanese to Yoko sensei so i wrote it with a mixture of languages. Kinda glad to be their students and grateful for their teachings :)   Also grateful to the other good teachers as well.

Thank you for everything :)

On the other hand, my illness seems to be recovering after so many weeks. I hope i will fully recover soon...
I shall spend the rest of my time studying for music theory exam this saturday.