Hello...you there? How have you been? Hope it's fine over there. It sux here lately. Things haven't been moving smoothly. I feel like giving up and quitting this job at certain times. Report would be due soon. Haven't felt this stressed for a long time and it surely doesn't feel good at all. I have a feeling that I would not be able to meet the deadline all these. Too much things to do in such a short time...

Can I don't wake up tomorrow?

Thanks...

Today. I was on my way to work like usual. Leaving for work slightly earlier, I stopped by at Compass Point to take the train. Then I walked down the escalator, checking my items on the way. My wallet, phone keys and ear piece are with me as always. Reaching the platform, I imagined how it's going to be like in the new client's place. Working on my laptop all the way. Hmm? Laptop? What the CRAP?!

I took it home yesterday and thought that it was still at my working place. Idiot. How can I forget? It's going to take some time to retrieve it but I can't work without it. Damn! I can't be late today especially. Thinking that I'm screwed this time, I got out of the station is an instant, with my phone out. I can only think of one person. My mom.

I called her, hoping that she was at home, and yes! She is. Without saying much, she agreed to bring my bag over to me immediately. As I was waiting for her, I looked in the direction of my house, where mom would be. I was experiencing a mixture of feelings then. A mixture of......probably ashamed and grateful. Ashamed, because if it was me, I would have hesitated to dropped whatever I'm doing to deliver a bag. I would have complained over the phone. But I am thankful. Thankful to have such a mom who places me at the first place.

The breeze blew against me as I was immersed in deep thoughts. After a while, she appeared in my sight, riding a bicycle, carrying my heavy bag.

She handed my bag over to me, " 快吗? "

:) ......

I want to treat her better...

2012

Another year has passed.

I am hearing people coming up with new year resolution and things that they would want to do in this brand new year. But i don't. I guess i didn't fraction my life into calender periods. Things just move on as usual as the clock strikes 12. The earth still spins. Unhappy things still occupy my mind. The phone rings with wishes of the new year yet i feel like ignoring it. I'm feeling so tired. Tired of everything. I want to stop struggling with school, with work, and with my life. I'm lost and aimless right now. I lost sight of whatever i have been fighting for.

Overcoming obstacles unaccompanied is tough. But i will try to hang on. I will be able to do it, wouldn't i? Dear clouds...you would imbue me with strength, will'ya?......

Right now i just need some quiet space

Don't quit

When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all up hill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up though the pace seems slow
You may succeed with another blow,
Success is failure turned inside out
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.

You wouldn't answer my calls

Feeling sad all of a sudden

I used to be able to write much more in my post

But now i can't even describe my own feelings

I just want to hide in a corner

Island of Feelings

Once upon a time there was an island where all the feelings lived; 

Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge, and all the others....including Love. 

One day it was announced to all of the feelings that the 

island was going to sink to the bottom of the ocean. 

So all the feelings prepared their boats to leave. 

Love was the only one that stayed. 

She wanted to preserve the island until the last possible moment. 

When the island was almost totally under, 

Love decided it was time to leave. 

She began looking for someone to ask for help. 

Just then Richness was passing by in a grand boat. 

Love asked, "Richness, Can I come with you on your boat?" 

Richness answered, "I'm sorry, but there is a lot of silver and gold on my boat and there would be no room for you." 

Then Love decided to ask Vanity for help who was passing in a beautiful vessel. 

Love cried out, "Vanity, help me please." 

I can't help you", Vanity said, 

"You are all wet and will damage my beautiful boat." 

Next, Love saw Sadness passing by. 

Love said, "Sadness, please let me go with you." 

Sadness answered, "Love, I'm sorry, but, I just need to be alone now." 

Then, Love saw Happiness. Love cried out, 

"Happiness, please take me with you." 

But Happiness was so overjoyed that he didn't hear Love calling to him. 

Love began to cry. Then, she heard a voice say, 

"Come Love, I will take you with me." It was an elder. 

Love felt so blessed and overjoyed that she forgot to ask the elder his name. When they arrived on land the elder went on his way. 

Love realized how much she owed the elder. 

Love then found Knowledge and asked, "Who was it that helped me?" 

"It was Time", Knowledge answered. "But why did Time help me when no one else would?", Love asked. 

Knowledge smiled and with deep wisdom and sincerity, answered, 

"Because only Time is capable of understanding how great Love is."

Thai Insurance - Daddy